World's End
UneasyI assume a lot of people would find this an exciting time as well as being scared. Unfortunately the majority of what I feel is fear and apprehension. I'll be moving back home away from everything and everyone, apart from my family, that I hold close to me with no proper knowledge of what comes next. I have been the first member of my immediate family to go to university.
I dislike change and don't cope with responsibility all too well as I usually doubt myself too much. Once I get settled into a new situation I usually adjust and end up being fine but its the unsettlement at the point of change that I dislike.
I think that maybe the thing I fear the most is that of being alone. During childhood and university I have been surrounded by my friends, knowing that I will see them each day but now that wont be the case. I haven't found my special someone yet.
I'm going to stop now before I depress too many people who are reading this. I should be more positive about things. Nobody has died and so I can still talk to and hopefully meet up with my friends in the future and moving on gives me the opportunity to meet new friends and experience new things.
Ok, I'm calling this journal to a close now. I need to go shopping anyway.
Wish me luck, as I wish good luck to all of my university friends and to anybody else going through the same thing.
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...Is a recession a type of parade? -Professor Percival P. Pigface. Blissfully unaware of the world's problems.
Change is opportunity and responsibility is a reward for seizing the opportunity ol' buddy, and like you say its all an email away....
Look forward to seeing you in the credits!
Phill
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I thought I might be lonely.
I have felt very anxious when worrying about wether or not That special someone would be there to protect me from the emptiness.
but then I realised.. it's the fear that is the worst. once you lose that fear, being alone is not a bad thing.
the fear is what makes us feel most alone. because we fear being alone, we think that somebody else can take that away, but we don't realise it is our own power that takes fear away.
so the horrible feeling of being alone is self inflicted. and nobody else can take it away, it's basically a figment of your imagination.
it's that safety net.
a tightrope walker can be walking on that tight rope for ages without falling of once. take away the net and all of a sudden he feels afraid.
but there's really no reason to.
you have been alone a lot of times during your life.
you have probably been alone almost every single night. it's a matter of perspective.
when you started university, you were alone.
but there were loads of people around and you made good friends pretty soon.
you did it once, you'll do it again, and again.
just make sure you keep making your plans and concentrate on the actions you can take that will put you in the situation you wanna be in.
I don't think you came to university to make friends. you had a reason for it. you have a plan.
friends are basically what happens along the way when there are people around.
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Hmmm, isn't this a depressing thread...
On the plus side, no more queuing for a line tester, no more broken Macs and no more Marisse and Yvonne being completely and utterly useless, lol.
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Shiver me timbers....
Yeah it was sort of all getting to me when I wrote this and needed to get it out. I should probably update my journal with something more positive now.
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i'm gonna miss seeing you guys on a regular basis, when i finally get my own place i'm gonna miss being in a house that's always got people in it.
i fear i'm gonna be having a lot of conversations with minion in the future >< hehe
yay for the future! *XD
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